Reclaiming Your Canvas: Transforming Struggles into Art
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Chapter 1: The Reflection of Struggles
What happens when you confront your own demons? When one aspect of your mind clashes with another, forcing you to rebuild your existence?
Graduating from college felt like a jolt. I transitioned from being an aspiring filmmaker to feeling like a guest in my childhood home, struggling to find work. In just a few months, I faced the loss of an aunt and my mental stability. My already fragile state was shattered by a wave of religious euphoria that struck me like a blow to the head.
Even after the intense episode known as "Jerusalem Syndrome" faded, I pursued a path in ministry, convinced it would honor my father’s memory and lead to a stable life. However, that notion was as deceptive as my earlier beliefs. It took years to realize that my father's death was a profound trauma, not just an event that had occurred.
Section 1.1: Discovering My True Self
I always harbored grand dreams of turning my dad into a masterpiece. Film seemed like the most extravagant medium. Perhaps that's why I chose to study it — to escape and to immortalize him. It was almost like Eminem taking his legacy further in 8 Mile.
However, I became so entrenched in my identity as a filmmaker that the absence of daily filmmaking eroded my sense of self.
Subsection 1.1.1: A New Avenue: Music
After struggling to gain momentum as a filmmaker, submitting original poetry, and attempting to write a novel, I stumbled upon music.
I’ll admit, my fanbase isn’t huge… yet. But music allowed me to create art without tethering my entire identity to it. With music, I could explore different personas, which I did with my first two EPs and my debut LP.
To feel comfortable enough to release and promote my music, I had to remind myself that my work was an extension of me, not my entirety.
Section 1.2: Unfulfilled Aspirations
In high school, I secretly wanted to emulate Bob Dylan, crafting and performing my own songs. But my lack of proficiency on the guitar or keyboard, coupled with some teasing from classmates, led me to bury that dream.
Now, those classmates are still performing classic rock covers, stuck in a musical time capsule. My songs, however, have evolved — and their opinions no longer matter. The real tragedy is that I ever let their judgments affect me.
Chapter 2: Breaking the Cycle
If I could offer a piece of advice to high school and college students, it would be this: disregard what others think. It’s simply not worth it. Don’t dwell on those who frustrate you — they don’t deserve space in your mind.
The reality is, while others may critique me, I can inflict far greater damage on myself. That internal struggle nearly drove me to despair at just 22 years old.
When you hit rock bottom, transform that experience into a celebration. Use the canvas beneath you as the foundation for your artistic expression.
And remember to be kind to yourself. You're likely a good person striving to navigate this complex world.
Stay positive, world.
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